Sach Jhoot Khwahishyien Sach
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Sach...
Kuch khayal aapke man ke ek andhere kone mein pade rehte hain. Roz ki bhaag daud mien shayadun khayalo par dhool ki ek parat jam jaati hai. Aap ka dhyan us andhere kamre mien pade us chhote se dibbe par kabhi nahi jata.Aap nahi chahte k wo dibba kabhi bhi khule aur usmien chhupa diye gaye, daba diye gaye sach bahar aayein. Un sachchaayeeon ko bhool jane k liye hi shayad aap wo dibba le kar aaye the. Kuch had tak ye koshish kamyaab ho jati hai lekin har waqt, ye maloom zaroor rehta hai ke wo dibba kaha pada hai. Un sachchaayeeon ki ek Dhundli si tasveer bhi aankho k aage hamesha bani rehti hai lekin hamesha andekhi kar di jaati hai.
Aur... ek din, jab aap apne kaam mein masroof hote ho, koi ajnabee ya koi dost aapse milne aata hai. Chai k cup k sath gup shup chal rahi hoti hai aur ek dam se wo dost kuch aisa bol jata hai ke aapke chai k cup mein sirf kadwa zeher hi bachta hai. Koi nam, koi jagah ya fir ek ghatna jo us wyakti ke liye koi khaasiyat nahi rakhti, uska zikr aate hi apke chehre ki rangat ud jati hai kyunki, wo sach jise chhupane ke liye aapne itni koshish ki thi, jis sach ki hond se hi aap inkaar kar chuke the, wo sach ek ajnabee ne aapke saamne khol ke rakh dia. Aur... aapko aisa mehsoos hota hai ke maano kisi ne aapke seene mein dhadak rahe dil ko apni hatheli mein pakad kar masal diya hai. Wo dibba jise aapne duniya ki hi kya, apni nazro se bhi chhupa k rakha tha. Wo dibba ab fir se din ki roshni mein aa jata hai... aur uske andar ka daraawna sach aapke zehen ko kharonchta rehta hai... Lahoo luhaan kar deta hai.
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Jhoot...
Kai bar use bhool jane ki koshish ki par har baar bas, uske baare mein sochta raeh gaya.
Kabhi kabhi hum ek jhoot par apni saari ummeed, saari khushiyan aur apna saara sukoon tika dete hain. Aapka poora wajood jaise us jhoot ko bachaane mein juta rehta hai. Har pal yehi dar man pe chhaya rehta hai k kahi is jhoot ka parda fash na ho jaye. Saara din, nazrei aisi kisi bhi cheez se bachti rehti hain jo is jhoot ke mayajal ko tod degi. Ek jhoot ko bachaane ke liye na jaane kitne hi sach andekhe kar diye jaate hain. Par shaq ka palda, har aise sach ki wajha se bhaari hota rehta hai. Baar baar jaise koi aapki kisi bahut azeez cheez ko aapse chheen lena chahta hai. Lekin ab bhi man, sach maan.ne ko tyar nahi hota. Us jhoot ko zindagi se jodti ek bareek si dor ko kas kar pakde rehta hai.
Aur ab, jab sach mere zehen par baar baar dastak de raha hai. Main samajh nahi pa raha hun ke kya is ek sach ko maan lun, aur apni zindagi ke kitne hi pal is haqeeqat ki bali chadha dun. Ya fir majboori ka bahana banakar us jhoot ko zinda rakhu. Kya main almari mein pade wo khat jala dun? ya fir jo phool ab bhi kisi purani kitab mein milte rehte hain, unke sahaare ye sochta rahu k... Hum fir milenge.
Han shayad... yehi kaha tha tumne.
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Khwahishyien...
har pal tumhare sath rehta
ghanto tumhein dekh sakta
...kaash...
ijazat hoti tumhein baho mein bharne ki
ijazat hoti tumhare baalo ko sehlane ki
...kaash...
har subha tumhare naam se shuru hoti
har rat tumhare sath mein khatam hoti
...kaash...
tum roz rooth jati
aur tumhein roz manaata
...kaash...
ek hi kitab se kuch phalsaphe tumhein suna k
ghanto unko lekar tum mujhse behas karti,
aur main har bar haar man leta
aur tum mujhe has kar meri jeet ka inaam deti
...kaash...
tum mere pass hoti
aur main tumhein keh sakta
k han tum se hi zindagi hai
...kaash...
...hazaro khwahishyein aisi...
Sach...
how small a part oh her life i could be
...sach...
1 comments:
mindblowing..straight from the gut
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