Kya Yar Aise Bhi Koi Karta Hai

Har guzarish sath chalne ki thukra chuke ho
kyun puchhte ho ke fir kab milenge

Thoda sach aur...

There is this thing about being in love with you which I completely and absolutely hate. Its not the part where you don't know I love you. Its not even the part where I know I cant have you, even for a tiny winy time in my life.
Its the part where after some days i get to know this little fact about you and then I just cant believe that what a stupid idiot I was in believing otherwise. The best part is that you don't lie to me. I can't blame you even a little for this rip-your-chest-and-crush-your-heart state I get myself into every time. Its only my naivete that leads me to believe in something, which is mostly the way i want the things to be. Why? Why? Why?

Goddammitt Why?

Deep down my heart I was afraid that this would happen and deep down my heart i was wishing for this day to not happen this time. But, I don't know why and how and for what fucking god damn reason, by evening I had myself convinced that all my fears were baseless and my worries without reason.

Why did I not think of it earlier? It has happened before also. How could I even hope that you wont do it again? Bloody hell !!! everything is falling into place now. I can see at least some of the steps.

See, You are You and I forget that every time. It had to happen and it did. Only problem, I got to know of it today and out of my own stupid doing.

I hate you... because you were there.

Kab sudhroge?
Kab bakshoge?
Kab nikloge mere sar se bahar?
Fuck Fuck Fuck

I want to leave this place.
Bahut ho gaya.
Bas !

Pardes...

wo waade pe waade kiye ja rahe hain

jo jaane lage hain sheher chhod kar

wo kehte hain kuch din magar jhoot hai
kuch umeedo ka kadwa zeher chhod kar

hoga raqeeb khuskismat bahut
jo jaate hain wo mera dil tod kar

na zamaane se chhupte hain mere ashq ab
wo bikhre pade hain kisi mod par

zaeb zinda bache ye mumkin nahi
wo jayenge telism.e.nazar ka kehar chhod kar




~<0>~ Abhi na jao chhod kar ~<0>~

Ta Da...

I

~<0>~
am singing

challa gutt ik lammi
asi supne si chummi
hoyi neeyat si annhi
asa dil di si manni
ve gall sun challeya
hun de lae jehdi deni hai saza

rabbi shergill's latest album

~<0>~
am reading

a book on cold war (just finished)
isaac asimov foundation series (just started)
lance armstrong's autobiography (middle)

~<0>~
am playing

dheere dheere se meri zindagi mein aana on harmonica (almost)
comfortably numb on guitar (pretty well)
age of empires 2 on pc (losing but learning)

~<0>~
am writing

some poems (:P)
some ghazal(s) (they are different)
no stories as of now [ :( i wanna]

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am painting

on canvas (big panga taken)

~<0>~
am dancing

like chandler.

~<0>~

My Country

this country i rule is everywhere
this country i seek is nowhere to be seen
its the land where the mind explodes
dreams ideas thoughts all cease to be

blue to red violet to pink
the suns chariot is about to flee
the sky turns inside out every night
the fires light up when the moon is free

heroes and villains worship the only flame
they chant the dark music under the lonely tree
certain freedoms the gods always fear
the Satan doesn't seem to disagree

its the mindless magician
that is you
its the mindless magician
that was me

When Shit hits the Roof

I can right now think of so many different permutations and combinations of fuck and shit. The First one is fuckinshit. You can figure out the rest as homework.

I need to improve my concentration... where is Hitler baba? I need to be in his camps.

Pardes

The post which was supposed to come up today will not be published because of some stupid doings on my part. Inconvenience is not regretted. The stupid doings are.

Pardes will be up someday.

Pure Narcotic By Porcupine Tree

You keep me waiting
You keep me alone in a room full of friends
You keep me hating
You keep me listening to the Bends

No amount of pointless days
Can make this go away

You have me on my knees
You have me listless and deranged
You have me in your pocket
You have me distant and estranged

No narcotics in my brain
Can make this go away

I'm sorry that, I'm sorry that I'm not like you
I worry that I don't act the way you'd like me to

You find me wanting
You find me bloodless but inspired
You find me out
You find me hallucinating fire

No narcotics in my brain
Can make this go away

Have we ever been here before?
Running headlong at the floor
Leave me dreaming on a railway track
Wrap me up and send me back

Its been a while

Its been a really long long time
since we walked through the hills
our shadows in the moonlight
we were victims of free will

you would close your eyes and whisper
will i hold your hands forever
and my eyes will gently sparkle
saying we will be together

time is such a punisher
and the distance makes me tremble
it was so much like a fairytale
well fate is just a gamble

but the hills still stay
and the moon still shines
waiting for us they talk to each other
i can still hear your whisper
and my eyes sometime sparkle
but if i could only hold your hands tonight
and forever