I am so so so scared right now but also I am so so so Happy :)

Oh but I am so so so Scared.



Edition: Jiska dar tha wahi hua :/

Heart or the Mind

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Last 3 days went by like a storm. Busy Busy and Busy.

But this has sown some very important questions in my mind. In fact Mind or Heart is the big question here. Also your past mistakes come and bite you always and now they bit me on my ass. I feel stupid stupid stupid and this is all because of the bloody heart. Problem is that I am not sure whether following my mind will lead me to my aim this time.

There are some other questions but they might get answered if I am able to solve the above problem correctly.

I hate important questions. I hate the important questions, the answers to which you can only know after 2 years and your opinion of their importance may change with the benefit of hindsight.

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I love the phrase 'benefit of hindsight'. It is one of those phrases which I feel are like so... apt. You see you can only have benefit of hindsight. You can never not-learn from a past experience, except if you are too stupid.

But stupidity is not really in ones hands. It is either in your Heart or your Mind.

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The age of secrets has come big time. A friend of mine told me something very important few days after the thing happened. Few years ago this was out of question.

I understand his reasons of not telling very well and also identify with them at a level. Just that it has now set an example. Ab se koi kisi ko kuch nahi batayega.

Also I was not telling people stuff badi pahle se, so I am ok with the age of secrets.

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I am playing a game with some people :P I may lose and it will feel bad like crazy but for now its game on guys. There are lot of factors but only two outcomes.

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I hate people. Still.

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I almost wrote a poem yesterday. I was called for a meeting.

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US of A

Another friend of mine has gone to US. I feel so happy for him.

I am also sad coz I wont get to see one of my fav people as regularly as i used to.

Thus I am confused and its not letting me study for a stupid midterm.

However I will just pray for his wellbeing and awesomness and end here only as I have already screwed one mid term today.

This one is to Eshaan Agarwal and our friendship.