I have made zillion plans. Few of them worked. Rest were left untouched/unfinished.
I am leaving Chandigarh tomorrow.
Chandigarh was good and will be immensely missed.
A long post was supposed to come up about my last 22 yrs here in this city beautiful but got busy with all the winding up of stuff here.
Probably later.
Lets see how Noida fares.
Next post from there.
Reading horoscope on a Sunday morning was never such a heart break.
I am so convinced that knowing future sucks.
and also happy friendship day everyone. Blah Blah Blah.
Some of you are good and some of you are just right of the top fantastic.
I hate some of you but its alright, coz friends do that, i guess.
There is this thing about being in love with you which I completely and absolutely hate. Its not the part where you don't know I love you. Its not even the part where I know I cant have you, even for a tiny winy time in my life.
Its the part where after some days i get to know this little fact about you and then I just cant believe that what a stupid idiot I was in believing otherwise. The best part is that you don't lie to me. I can't blame you even a little for this rip-your-chest-and-crush-your-heart state I get myself into every time. Its only my naivete that leads me to believe in something, which is mostly the way i want the things to be. Why? Why? Why?
Goddammitt Why?
Deep down my heart I was afraid that this would happen and deep down my heart i was wishing for this day to not happen this time. But, I don't know why and how and for what fucking god damn reason, by evening I had myself convinced that all my fears were baseless and my worries without reason.
Why did I not think of it earlier? It has happened before also. How could I even hope that you wont do it again? Bloody hell !!! everything is falling into place now. I can see at least some of the steps.
See, You are You and I forget that every time. It had to happen and it did. Only problem, I got to know of it today and out of my own stupid doing.
I hate you... because you were there.
Kab sudhroge?
Kab bakshoge?
Kab nikloge mere sar se bahar?
Fuck Fuck Fuck
I want to leave this place.
Bahut ho gaya.
Bas !
The post which was supposed to come up today will not be published because of some stupid doings on my part. Inconvenience is not regretted. The stupid doings are.
Pardes will be up someday.
There are times in your life when all things seem to be coming your way.
Well it seems that i am going through such a phase again.
One such thing was an Opel Astra car.
Yes, I had an accident, my car got crashed real bad and though i came out unhurt but i have the right to crib and be very pessimistic about my life.
Most of my plans for the holidays have not been successful.
Revealing any more information will be too much detail so i will be all secretive and pretend that i have a life.
This world is going to burn...
